Finals

Hello everyone...

I'm a bit lost right now, because I don't know what I should do. Well, final exams are coming so soon (which is next week.. I'm dead!), but I still don't have the urge to pick the books up. Reluctance.. For the pass few months, me along with all the students whole Malaysia, no, around the world who are attending university life, are struggling to keep up with all the assignments, tasks, reports, presentation project and etc until the very last day of final study week (WEEK 14 that is). I proudly would like to label this week as the deadliest moment of your youth life.. *the horribleness started to spread around your mind too*

Back to the main problem: All the tasks have been completed and submitted accordingly, and now, there is no more desire left in this vessel. I somehow have send off those tasks away, without even realize that my soul is attached on them, leaving my body behind, alone.

Okay2.. I'm exaggerating things here..hehehe

As I was saying, I have yet to make a move on starting to revise for my final. The light bulb is not there lighting! and I'm starting to feel nervous. Procrastinating - that is the right term here. The old habit of mine, one and only problem that I can't dissolve throughout my entire youth. I love to estimate or predict the consequences of every single action that I take, and I still believe that there is still hope for me to have good result if I keep on being procrastinator. Even so, I am worried. How can I be so calm and continue with typing this all out, knowing that there no more than 3 days to prepare for my final paper... Huhuhuh..T_T

And what's more, I'm easy to get distracted. I'm standing at the comfort zone right now, of course there is nothing that can motivate me at this time. With the internet moving faster than always, I went on opening tabs by tabs, and as expected, I lose track of time. Huhuhu..

What is happening to me? I need to be more serious! Be alert! Be firm!

and so..

There's not much that I have done today, aside from this post, the last thing that I did which relate to the study was 6 hours ago, and for the rest of the night, I'm blaming YouTube on conquering my time. *Just kidding*..

Well, anyways.. This was all just one of those moments went I felt like to write something that came up on my mind. I feel quite relaxing after spitting out all the unnecessary random stuffs that sticking on my brain. Instead of just keeping them, there's no harm on let them free, right? *Feel lighter*

oh yeah, I also got time on drawing this.. 

So long! Annyeong! Ba-bye! Tschuss! #FightForFinal #June #2015 #UKM #TGIF

The raped boy.

Salam blogger. I came here once in a while, saje nak jenguk2 (clean the dust away..*cough2*)

Today/ tonight actually, i wanna share something old, something that was shared by my friend during my last foundation days.. it was quite surprising and unexpected right? "THE RAPED BOY" (lelaki yang diperkosa)

Macam mana tajuk ni keluar dari perbualan kitaorang, itu gua dah lupa sepenuhnya, memang tiba-tiba je dia kongsi pasal cerita ni. She told us about one of her school acquaintance (kenalan) during her high school years, the one that being the victim. Victim of what? Rape. He, a boy, is being raped by some other guy. It really shocked me and it almost hit my spine. Why? well i was surely that it was hardly, maybe it won't actually gonna happen to someone near me. At least that was what i believed until i heard the story. I read some yaoi (gay) Manga (okay, i know this might sound weird but, it is the truth..okay whatever, continue) and i really can / still can accept the concept of having two males having that kind of relationships, but not as much as it happens in the real life. I tend to just go for it when reading the Manga, but it is totally different when it turns to real shit, real deal.

So, back to the main topic, that boy. Story goes where he was being raped by a man(adult), and that unreasonable man was none other than from his own family members, which was, sadly, his own uncle. That was pretty the starting of his down fall of that boy's life. Well, that was expected. I mean, who would not have one? Whoever that happened to be raped would, of course, experience the very trauma, for the rest of his/her life. In his case, it is much worst, because, first- he's a boy. No boy would want to share that little 'dark secret' to others, not even his own trusted parents, and second, the person who happened to rape him was his own uncle, he shares the same bloodline, who he used to respect. It is really not that easy for him. If i were him, i probably would act the same too.

What happened after? I asked my friend, she said that, his parents especially his father sensed something was off. I don't really get the details here. Not long after that, the father, was finally exposed to the real deal from his own son. He was really in his furious mode, and made his way to his brother's place. He was surely did the best that he could to lose all his anger to his own brother by releasing his greatest fist to that man. And that was the end, i guess? Later, the boy's parents treats the boy in very caring manner, as much as possible, they have forbid his uncle to meet him for the rest of his life (i am not sure at this part, i really am forgetting the ending)..

Finally, that boy, well my friend did mention that he is improving his self-esteem, he is sure recovering a lot, but one thing for sure, that 'incident' really did affect him, in some way. The way he sees people have changed, especially towards the male. He started to develop same-gender interest. But, he really in the state of recovering, and his parents and friends try the best to guide him. I believe he also gives his best to be healed completely. I somehow really wanna know this boy, and i really wanna be the one that he would dare sharing his 'forbidden past'.

So that's all that i can share. I haven't heard anything new about him from my friend. The messages that i would like to give here: please, try to be alert and aware of your surrounding. Gives help to those in need. Be the listener. Be the carer. Be the loving one. Respect each other.

*credit to the respective owner of the photo (taken from google.com)

#weekdaynight #anginsepoi2 #throwback #2014 #experience #share #story #sliceoflife #feelsorryforhimthough

Berfikir Sejenak

"Dalam sedang berkomunikasi, kedua-dua pihak perlu memandang atau berhadapan dengan satu sama lain."

Salam, and hello everyone.. Guten Abend/Guten Mogen.

Apa yang saya katakan di atas itu adalh salah satu ciri utama yang perlu wujud ketika melalui satu sesi berkomunikasi antara satu pihak dengan satu pihaka yang lain.

Hari ini saya ingin mengkaitkan idea asas ini dengan sesuatu yang sangat rumit iaitu : MEMIMPIN. 

Dalam sesuatu proses kepimpinan itu, wujudnya dua pihak juga iaitu, yang memimpin dan juga yang dipimpin. Simple, isn't? Tetapi, apa yang rumitnya ialah cara proses kepimpinan itu berlangsung. Bagi yang dipimpin atau follower itu sentiasa akan memandang mereka yang memimpin mereka. Mereka akan mendengar, mengikut arah dan juga akan mengikut jejak langkah pemimpin mereka. Jadi, apa yang perlu pemimpinnya lakukan? Sudah semestinya sama. Yang digelar pemimpin itu perlulah lakukan yang sama, iaitu memandang anak-anak buahnya. Mereka juga perlu mendengar suara-suara yang dipimpinnya. Tidak ke baru adil? Baru ada equivalent exchange di sini. Ini cuma satu teori yang saya keluarkan. No offense. 

 Itu sahaja dari saya. Tiba-tiba terfikir tentang ini, dan saya hanya ingin berkongsi tentang pendapat saya yang lemah ini .Mudah-mudahan sesiapa yang terbaca ini akan paham dengan apa yang saya smpaikan. Sekian

IT HAS BEEN A WHILE !!!!!

Salam, and hi... oh i miss this blog, miss it so damn much!!!

I just stopped by, wanna say hello to ....no one...(well, no one is following me...). I went to every posts that i made from the past and i have found out that my usage of grammar was terrifying.. totally! I was so ashamed of my own deficiency.. hohoho.. hopefully, my grammar improves..

  *watch out for Grammar Nazis* 

Cerita Kecil Saya

Ia bermula dengan sekadar contengan budak amatur di atas meja. Orang kayu. Memang tidak sah, ini mesti hasil seni tangan pelajar lelaki, tetapi siapa? Saya ini orangnya peramah, semua orang saya rapat, semua orang saya tegur. Tetapi, apa sahaja berkenaan dengan hak peribadi seperti meja saya ini yang telah tercemar, akan berubahlah perangai bidadari menjadi malaikat maut. Namun, pada ketika itu, saya hanya abaikan sahaja buat sementara waktu kerana kesibukan dengan tugasan sekolah. Alah, setakat orang kayu satu dua, apa sangatlah. Jadi, keesokan harinya, datang lagi satu karakter baru di atas meja saya. Sungguh tidak percaya. Berani juga si fulan ni buat ya. Tambah pula adegan lawan pada karakter-karakter orang kayu tersebut. Naik angin saya dibuatnya. Siapakah yang berada disebalik malapetaka ini? Saya mula meragui setiap pelajar yang berada di dalam kelas. Satu-satu saya perhatikan pergerakan mereka. Buntu. Saya terus duduk, mengeluh, dan memerhatikan permukaan meja saya yang tercemar itu. Sambil mata kuyup-kuyup, tiba-tiba meliar ke satu arah. Di sudut belah kanan meja tertulis sesuatu, samar-samar. Dua perkataan: B.B - Benci Bio. Bio, biology? Jadi, sejak itu saya terus membuat konklusi bahawa pemilik contengan-contengan ini ialah senior sebelah pagi. Fuh, lega. Lega? Lega sebab dia bukan dikalangan rakan sekalas saya atau lega dia salah seorang senior? Lelaki yang pasti. Kerana, pertama: mengikut gaya lukisannya. Kedua, dibawah meja ini tidak begitu terhias. Hanya sekadar dua batang pensil kayu HB yang dipercayai miliknya. Barang-barang lain- buku nota dan teks bernamakan Laila. Disebabkan dia seorang pelajar senior, tidak terbangkit pun niat untuk naik angin. Saya tidak mengenalinya, dan seorang yang lebih tua,jadi mana mungkin saya mampu menyerangnya. Solusi saya, saya capai pensil saya, menghala ke arah orang-orang kayu tersebut dan menulis sesuatu.

Sambung...

Cerita kecil saya

Suatu ketika dahulu, ada seorang pelajar lelaki, umurnya tua dua tahun daripada saya. Nama, saya dah tidak berapa ingat. Dia banyak membantu, mengurangkan beban tekanan saya. Seorang pelajar senior yang sungguh bagi saya, namun dia mampu mengubah hidup saya.

Setiap hari, saya tidak mampu melihatnya. Bukan kerana buta, tetapi tidak kenal. Tidak cam siapa dia yang sebenar. Tidak pernah megetahui mukanya. Kami hanya dapat berhubung melalui meja. Ya, meja sahaja objek yang menghubungkan kata-kata kami. Sistem bersurat kami guna. Tidak ramai yang perasan, tidak semua yang tahu. Hanya kita berdua, dalam kehidupan yang berbeza, berkongsi pengalaman yang sama. Menarik, bukan? Tidak banyak yang kami kongsikan sebenarnya. Apa yang menarik, apa yang baik-baik sahaja. Tinggal sahaja yang buruk-buruk berjauhan dari dunia kami.

Sambung...

my speaking draft: part time job is allowed for students

The topic that i choose is regarding students. But, it's clearly not involving school, it's about students having a part-time job. So, is it allowable for them to have it?

Part time job can be considered as a disadvantages for the students by some part of our community. They say that part time jobs may slow down the learning process, wasting times for studying and disturbing the social life. They also think that by having the part time jobs, the students might lost focus on archiving their future goal because some other reasons that make no sense. Well, of course those who have the part time jobs have to work out twice the others, they have to deal to their school life, and the after-school life where they have their part-time jobs, with stable. The students who apply the part time jobs are most likely due to these several reasons, which are first, it can be as financial assistance, second, it acts as the gaining-experience mechanism and last but not least, it can be done for the learning to people's hardship to survive in life.

The first reason why students are allowed to have the part-time job is because of the money itself. People need to have money, so do the students. Students especially the tertiary students and those who lives independently at hostels or rent a place to stay are facing a hard time in managing the electric and water bills, vehicles gas and also the students' expenses, thus they have to face the financial problems monthly. Plus, the cost of living that might increase from time to time is also one of the things that they have to put in mind. They tend to solve or so-called 'running' from the situation by paying those bills and fees after borrowing some notes from their family members and relatives, and some of them had to meet the loan sharks or debtors. This is an absolute no-no. So, I thought that jobs can produce money and because of they are still studying, I suggested that they just have to do something that they are able to do, they able to afford, which is applying part-time jobs. This way, they will gain their own allowance, pay off all the bills and have extra pocket money. It's great, isn't it? The students will eventually reduce the probability of meeting the life-eaters (the debtors) and lessen up the family's burden. The money can be saved as an emergency use too. For instant, if the students suddenly felt sick or occur any incidents that harmed them physically or any destruction like house on fire, or another flood phenomenon, the students can use the saved money. They can feel a little bit secure with the extra money that the had.

So, we're off to the second one.

Next, students can gain extra knowledge and experiences and develop good characteristics when engaging their self in part time jobs. I talk about the knowledge and experiences stuffs first. So, what do you think are the skills that the students might gain from having a part time jobs? (YUP, you guessed right) The most obvious one is the soft skill. Soft skills include speaking, converse and communicate with people, adapt in the situation. By having those soft skills, the students will automatically trained to be good in front of the people, they can easily adapt the vibes of all kind of people. For example, the students who work as a waiters or cashiers or sales assistances, their working environments can change their way of speak, treating peoples based on different ages. In fact, they also will know how to handle 'this' kind of customers/peoples with 'this' kind of treatment. Compare to those who do not take any part time job, these students can face a more critical situations than them, due to the experiences that they gain from the jobs. In addition, they are able to have a smoother conversation when dealing with outside people compare to the non-working kids. Besides, the skill that they have based on different types of job is also considered as new knowledge for them. Another point for them. Oh, before I forget, I haven't touch the discipline part. Those who have experienced work would have the ability to manage time, a little step better than those who have not. That is the impact of disciplined one self. It can trained people to be more precise, more advance and more mature. By having the part time job, the students are exposed to a lot of new things, new kind of environment. They meet a lot of people and thus, can afford a bunch of contacts, regarding with jobs and works. They will recognize and learn about other companies, how the business works and so on. With the acquire skills, the confidence that build and the networks of contacts, the students can clarify their goals in the future -- to choose the right sector of working.

Finish with the second points, now down to the last point.

The third reason why a student is allowed to have the part time job is because they will get the chance to learn the people's hardship in the survival of life. I would to stress on the idea of the this last point. To those who have the part time job will not only physically grown up, but their mental also will go through a new level. They have been exposed to the real world of working, they meet people that works with them, and face the much more challenging living phase than any other kids. They obviously have and will face extra pressure in their life, which they need to focus in school, and at their working place. Because of that, they grown up to be more mature, they have endure a lot of pain. They will learn how to appreciate all the hard-work, all the effort that people put in order to gain money, wealth. They will develop the self-conscious on handling the money itself. They are just not going to waste their sweat and tears that easily afterward. They tend to spend wiser, and safe for the future. They realize the hardship on surviving through out the life. Eventually, they will develop responsibility in their self. They will work with efficiently in every task that they receive, both in work and school. So, it shows that the part time job really gives more benefits for the students.

In conclusion, the part time job really is a handful towards the kids these days. It can act as the financial assistance, the mechanism on gaining new experiences, knowledge and also meet new contacts. It also happen to help the students to learn on the hardship of the people around the world in surviving in life. So, i once again going to repeat my stand which is: Part time job is absolutely allowed for students.